Day 2 re-cap and Day 3

So last night was really intense and emotional for me. I felt really hungry and had only two juices all day. It was nearing dinner time and I just felt like giving up. The thought of real food was intoxicating. It wasn't that I wanted to eat something unhealthy I just wanted that full feeling. This was AFTER I had recently had a conversation with a co-worker about how those "feelings" are completely mental.

I felt completely powerless and began crying to my boyfriend about how hard this is and how miserable and unhappy I am with my weight. I have to say that I have the most understanding, loving, wonderful and caring partner I think a person can have. He talked me through it and made me feel better, telling me that he loves me the way that I am but supports my need to change this HUGE part of my life.

We talked about making some serious changes to our routine and diet including, weaning off processed foods and including more fruits and vegetables in our already vegetarian diet.

I ended up eating a grilled slab of salmon and steamed broccoli (not homemade but from a local delivery place). I felt proud of myself that I chose a healthy alternative to the usual veggie burger and fries. I also skipped the white rice.

So now I think that from today onward, I'm going to be really kind to myself and not alienate my inner-self who is really struggling with these lifestyle changes that I'm putting her through. I need to keep reminding her that everything is going to be OK and that with me in charge, she will be safe. Settling my mind in this way I think will really help this process along. I am NOT torturing her! I am helping her and I know that she is grateful but just scared. But it is going to be alright, in fact it is going to be so much better.

And... It already IS better! Since the start of this summer I have lost 9 lbs. I've fluctuated a lot but it seems like an overall loss is really great.

This means that as of today I weighed in at 216lbs. I had been stuck around the 218 mark but have broken past it and am on my way out of the 200s :D

Today's Juices
Breakfast:
4 Celery stalks
6 cups Spinach
1 Beet

Lunch
1 Large Cucumber
4 Carrots
1 Apple